Thursday, March 5, 2009

Superwoman

So I decided to make my own blog so that I can record my own mental and spiritual journey. So here it is. I guess it will be sort of like my journal. I've been struggling lately with not being able to be superwoman. I want to be a great wife. I want to be a great mother. I want to be a great daughter. I want to be a great sister. I want to be a great friend. And I want to be a great YW president. And I can't do it all. At least not at the same time, and not with my definition of great. So I end up feeling like I'm always falling short. I think mentally, I knew I couldn't do it all when the baby came, but I figured after a sufficient adjustment period I'd be able to at least manage satisfactory in all areas. I guess my adjustment period has ended in my subconscious because I find myself getting so discouraged with my performance. Mostly in Young Women's. That has to be last on the list. I don't know. I don't have much time for self-pity, so I cried last night, the morning came, and it was time to get up and get to work. I just need to keep praying that I'll use my time and energies how the Lord wants, and that he'll help me let go of the rest. Do all women struggle with this? Do we all have the desire to be superwoman? It's a fine line to walk. It pushes us to be better, and yet it can also inspire discouragement when we can't let go of unrealistic expectations.